Live At Benaroya Hall
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Released |
July 27, 2004 |
Recorded |
October 22, 2003 |
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Lenght |
Double disc - Live |
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Record label |
Epic |
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Producer |
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Clouds roll by
Reeling is what they say
Or is it just my way?
Wind blows by, low light
Side-tracked, low light
Can't see my tracks, your scent-way back
Can I be here all alone?
Clear a path to my home
Blood runs dry
Books and jealousy tell me wrong
All I feel, calm
Voice blows by, low light
Car crash, low light
Can't wear my mask, your first, my last
Voice goes by
Two birds is what they'll see
Getting lost upon their way
Wind rolls by, low light
Eye sight, low light
I need the light
I'll find my way from wrong, what's real?
The dream I see
I have not been home since you left long ago
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven
Counting steps, walking backwards on the road
I'm counting my way back to heaven
I can't be free with what's locked inside of me
If there was a key, you took it in your hand
There's no wrong or right, but I'm sure there's good and bad
The questions linger overhead
No matter how cold the winter, there's a springtime ahead
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven
I wish that I could hold you
I wish that I had
Thinking 'bout heaven
I let go of a rope, thinking that's what held me back
And in time I've realized, it's now wrapped around my neck
I can't see what's next, from this lonely overpass
Hang my head and count my steps, as another car goes past
All the rusted signs we ignore throughout our lives
Choosing the shiny ones instead
I turned my back, now there's no turning back
No matter how cold the winter, there's a springtime ahead
I smile, but who am I kidding?
I'm just walking the miles, every once in a while I'll get a ride
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven
Thumbing my way back to heaven
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven...
There's a light, when my baby's in my arms.
There's a light, when the window shades are drawn.
Hesitate when I feel I may do harm to her.
Wash it off cause this feeling we can share.
And I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
Byzantine is reflected in our pond.
There's a cloud, but the water remains calm.
Reaching in the suns fingers clutch the dawn to pass.
Even out, it's a precious thing to bear.
And I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
Yes I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
It's not in my past to presume.
Love can keep on moving in both directions.
How to be happy and true is quest we're taking on together.
Take it on, on, on, on, on.
Take it on, on, on, on, on.
There's a light when my baby's in my arms.
And I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
And I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
And I know she's reached my heart in thin air.
Yes I know she's reached my heart
How good is he?
how warm are his eyes
you'll see it's not a reprise
there he arrived
too late and too tethered away
to put on his suit and his tie
how good is he?
how warm is his heart
or ego telling him which place to park
did he relate, the message is clearly hardly
grounds for dismissal outright
grounds for dismissal outright
i wake up and wait up
when anger's in fashion
i wake up and wait up
it echoes through the mansions
i wake up and wait up
when april's in may, oh uh oh
i wake up and wait up
the answers are fatal
the answers are fatal
when i wait up and wake up
the answers are fatal
if he's truly out of sight
is he truly out of mind?
if he's truly out of sight...
Don't feel like home. He's a little out.
And all these words elope. It's nothing like your poem.
Putting in. Inputting in. Don't feel like methadone.
A scratching voice all alone it's nothing like your baritone.
It's nothing as it seems. The little that he needs. It's home.
The little that he sees. Is nothing he concedes. It's home.
One uninvited chromosome. A blanket like the ozone.
It's nothing as it seems. All that he needs. It's home.
The little that he frees is nothing he believes.
Saving up a sunny day. Something maybe two tone.
Anything of his own. A chip off the corner stone.
Who's kidding? Rainy day. A one way ticket headstone.
Occupations overthrown. A whisper through a megaphone.
It's nothing as it seems. The little that he needs. It's home.
The little that he sees is nothing he concedes. It's home.
And all that he frees. A little bittersweet. It's home.
It's nothing as it seems. The little that you see it's home.
Tidal waves don't beg forgiveness
'CRASHED' and on their way
Father he enjoyed collisions; others walked away
A snowflake falls in may.
And the doors are open now as the bells are ringing out
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now.
Nature has its own religion; gospel from the land
Father ruled by long division, young men they pretend
Old men comprehend.
And the 'SKY BREAKS' at dawn; shedding light upon this town
They'll all come round
Cause the man of the hour is taking his final bow
Goodbye for now.
And the road
The old man paved
The broken seams along the way
The rusted signs, left just for me
He was guiding me, love, his own way
Now the man of the hour is taking his final bow
As the curtain comes down
I feel that this is just goodbye for now.
Vacate is the word...vengeance has no place so near to her
Cannot find the comfort in this world
Artificial tear...vessel stabbed...next up, volunteers
Vulnerable, wisdom can't adhere...
A truant finds home...and I wish to hold on...
But there's a trapdoor in the sun...immortality...
As privileged as a whore...victims in demand for public show
Swept out through the cracks beneath the door
Holier than thou, how?
Surrendered...executed anyhow
Scrawl dissolved, cigar box on the floor...
A truant finds home...and I wish to hold on, too...
But saw the trapdoor in the sun...
Immortality...
I cannot stop the thought...I'm running in the dark...
Coming up a which way sign...all good truants must decide...
Oh, stripped and sold, mom...auctioned forearm...
And whiskers in the sink...
Truants move on...cannot stay long
Some die just to live...
Ohh...
One...Two...One...Two
Know a man
His face seemed pulled and tense
Like he's ridin' on a motorbike
In the strongest winds
So I approach with tact
Suggest that he should relax
But he's movin' much too fast
Said he'll see me on the flip side
On this trip he's taken for a ride
He's been takin' too much on
There he goes with his perfectly unkept hope
There he goes
He's yet to come back
But I seen his picture
It doesn't look the same up on the rack
We go way back
I wonder 'bout his insides
It's like his thoughts are too big for his size
He's been taken...where, I don't know
Off he goes with his perfectly unkept hope
There he goes
And now I rub my eyes, for he has returned
Seems my preconceptions are what should have been burned
For he still smiles... And he's still strong
Nothing changed but the surroundin' bullshit
That has grown
And now he's home and we're laughin'
Like we always did, my same old, same old friend
Until a quarter to ten
I saw the strain creep in
He seems distracted and I know just what is going to happen next
Before his first step, he's off again...
I am wishing you a well
Mind at peace within yourself
Covers up, I cast you off
I'll be watchin' as you breathe
I lie still, you move, I send you off around the bend
I hold you deep in my arms
My fingertips, they close your eyes
Off you dream my little child
There's a sun around the bend (2X)
All the evenings close like this
All these moments that I've missed
Please forgive me, won't you dear
Please forgive and let me share
With you around the bend
You're an angel when you sleep
How I want your soul to keep
On and on around the bend
I believe in miracles...
I believe in a better world for me and you...
[2X]
I will get by...[3X]
I will survive...
Survive...[3X]
I will get by...[3X]
I'll survive... [4X]
Routine was the theme. He'd wake up wash and pour himself into uniform.
Something he hadn't imagined being.
As the merging traffic passed he found himself staring down at his own hands.
Not remembering the change. Not recalling the plan. Was it?
He was okay but wondering about wandering.
Was it age by consequence or was he moved by sleight of hand?
Mondays were made to fall. Lost on a road he knew by heart.
It was like a book he read in his sleep. Endlessly.
Sometimes he hid in the radio watching other pull into their homes.
While he was drifting.
On a line of his own. Off the line of the side. Bye the by.
As dirt turned to sand. As if moved by sleight of hand.
When he reached the shore of his clip on world he resurfaced to the norm.
Organized his few things. His coat and keys.
And he knew realizations would have to wait.
Till he had more time. More time.
A time to dream to himself. He waves goodbye to his self.
I'll see you on the other side.
Another man moved by slight of hand.
It's a hopeless... situation
And I'm starting to believe
That this hopeless... situation
Is what I'm trying to achieve
But I try
To run on
Is all or none,... all or none
Here's the selfless confession
Leading me back to war
Can we help that,.. our destinations
Are the ones we've been before
I still try
To run on
But is all or none,... all or none
To myself I... surrender
To the one I'll never please
But I still try to run on
Oh I still try to run on
But it's all or none, all or none
Drive down the street can't find the keys to my own fucking home
I take a walk so I can curse my ass for being dumb
I make a right after the arches. . . stinking grease and bone
Stop at the supermarket. . . people stare like I'm a dog
I'm gone to Lukin's... I gotta spot at Lukin's
Unlock the door at Lukin's. . . open the fridge
Now I know life's worth
I find the key but I return to find an open door
Some fucking freak who claims I fathered by raping my son
I find my wife. I call the cops. This day's work's never done.
The last I heard the freak was purchasing a fucking gun.
Behind her eyes there's curtains and they've been closed to hide the flames. Remains.
She know their futures burning but she can smile just the same. Same.
And though her mood is fine today there's a fear they'll soon be parting ways.
Standing like a statue. A chin of stone a heart of clay. Hey.
And thought he's too big a man to say there's a fear they'll soon be parting ways.
Drifting away. Drifting away. Drifting away. Away. Away.
Drifting away. Drifting away. Drifting away. Away. Away.
Down,
Fell by the wayside
No getting out
Down,
Cry me a river
Dried up and damned
The names,
Can be changed
But the place,
Is still the same
I am loaded, told that alls for naught
Holds me down
Rise,
Life is in motion
I'm stuck in line
Rise,
You cant be neutral
On a moving train
One day,
The symptoms fade
Think ill throw,
These pills away
And if hope could grow from dirt like me
It can be done
Wont let the light escape from me
Wont let the darkness swallow me
I wanna shake
I wanna wind out
I wanna leave
This mind and shout
I've lived
All this life
Like an ocean
In disguise
I don't live for
Ever
You can't keep
Me here
I wanna race
With the sundown
I want a last breath
(That I don't let out)
Forgive
Every being
The bad feelings
It's just me
I won't wait
For answers
You can't keep
Me here
I wanna rise
And say goodnight
Wanna take
A look on the other side
I've lived
All those lives
It's been wonder
Full at night
I will live for
Ever
You can't keep
Me here
Sailing on my every step
Inching off of the earth...
It's magnified
by the things I've done
The thing that I've become
Every lift of my hand,
Coffee cup up and back,
Is magnified
by the things I've done
The things I've seen, the things I've caused,
I'm a dead man walking.
The hammer that I once brought down now hovers over me.
Casts a shadow, a cross/across onto me.
The hallways are all mocking me.
What I've become they're all mocking me.
I'm a dead man walking. A dead man walking. A dead man walking.
I'm a dead man walking. Dead man walking. Dead man walking.
Come you masters of war
You that build all the guns
You that build the death place
You that held all the guns
You that hide behind walls
You that hide behind desks
I just want you to know I can see through your masks
You that never done nothing
But to build and destroy
You play with my world
Like it's your little toy
You put a drug in my head
Then you hide from my eyes
Then you turn and run following the fast foolish line
Like Judas of old
You lie and decieve
A world war can be won
You won't need to believe
But I see through your eyes
And I see through your brain
Like I see through the water that runs down my drain
You that fasten all the triggers
For the others to fire
Then you sit back and watch
While the death count gets higher
You hide in your mansions
While young peoples blood
Flows out of their bodies and is buried in the mud
You've thrown the worst fear
That could ever be hurled
The fear to bring children
Into this world
For threatening my baby
Unborn and unnamed
You ain't worth the blood that runs in your veins
How much do I know
To talk out of turn?
You might say that I'm young
You might say I'm unlearned
But there's one thing I know
Though I'm younger than you
Even Jesus would never forgive what you do
Let me ask you one question
Is your money that good?
Will it buy you forgiveness?
Do you think that it could?
Oh I think you will find
When your death takes its toll
All the money you made will never buy back your soul
And I hope that you die
And your death'll come soon
I'll follow your casket
In the pale afternoon
And I'll watch as you're lowered
Into your deathbead
And I'll stand on your grave til I'm sure that you're dead
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay,
were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul
as the earth to the sun.
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn.
Oooo ooo.
And all I taught her was everything.
Oooo ooo.
I know she gave me all that she wore
and now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds
of what was everything?
All the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play.
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
And twisted thoughts that spin round my head...
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning.
How quick the sun can drop away...
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
of what was everything?
All the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad, turned my world to black
tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll ever be...yeah...
Uh huh.
Uh huh.
Ooo.
I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star
in somebody else's sky, but why
why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?
She lived on the curve in the road in an old tar paper shack.
On the south side of the town on the wrong side of the tracks.
Sometimes on the way into town we'd say, "Mama can we stop and give her a ride?"
Sometimes we did but her hands flew from her side.
Wild eyed crazy Mary.
Down a long dirt road past the Parson's place.
That old blue car we used to race.
Little country store with a sign tacked to the side.
Said 'NO LOITERING ALLOWED.'
Underneath that sign always congregated quite a crowd.
Take a bottle drink it down. Pass it around.
Take a bottle drink it down. Drink it... Pass it around. Pass it a...
A-take a bottle drink it down. Pass it... Pass it a... Pass it around.
One night thunder cracked. Mercy backed outside her windowsill.
Dreamed I was flying high above the trees over the hills.
Looked down into the house of Mary.
Terrible thoughts. Newspaper covered walls. And Mary rising up above it all.
Oh... Oh... Oh...
Next morning on the way into town saw some skid marks and followed them around.
Over the curve, through the fields, into the house of Mary.
That what you fear the most could meet you halfway. (x2)
Take a bottle drink it down. Pass it around.
Take a bottle drink it down. Pass it... Pass it around. Pass it a...
Take a bottle drink it down. Pass it... Pass it a... Pass it around.
Oh, pass it a... Pass it arround. Pass it a... Pass it a... Pass it a...
Oh yeah.
Well there building a gallows outside my cell.
I've got 25 minutes to go, and in 25 minutes I'll be in hell.
I've got 24 minutes to go. Well he gave me some beans for my last meal,
with 23 minutes to go, and you know nobody's asking me, oh how i feel,
with 22 minutes to go. So I wrote the govenor and the whole damn bunch,
with 21 minutes to go, and I call up the mayor but you know, he's out to lunch
with 20 more minutes to go, and the sheriff says boy I wanna watch you die,
with 19 minutes to go, so I spit in his face and I kicked him in the eye
with 18 minutes to go. Well I called out to the warden to take my plea,
with 17 minutes to go. He said call me back in a week or three
with 16 minutes to go. Well my lawyer says he's sorry that he missed my case,
with 15 minutes to go. Well youre sorry then come and take my place
with 14 minutes to go. Well here comes the padre coming to set me free
with 13 minutes to go, and he's talking about burning but I feel so fucking cold
with 12 more minutes to go. Now there testing the trap and it chills my spine
with 11 more minutes to go. Cause the god damn thing seems to work just fine
with 10 more minutes to go. I'm waiting for the pardon gonna set me free
with 9 more minutes to go. Well this aint the movies so to hell with me,
with 8 more minutes to go. Now I'm climbing up the ladder with the scaffolding
with 7 more minutes to go. I'd better watch my step before I break my leg,
with 6 more minutes to go. With my feet on the trap, and my head in the noose,
I got 5 more minutes to go. Well come on someone and cut me loose
I got 4 more minutes to go. I can see the mountains, I can see the sky
with 3 more minutes to go. And it's too damn pretty for a man to want to die
with 2 more minutes to go. I can hear the buzzards, I can see the crows
with 1 more minute to go, and now I'm swingin, here I go.
You guys ready...
Alone... listless... breakfast table in an otherwise empty room
Young girl... violins... center of her own attention
The, mother reads aloud, child, tries to understand it
Tries to make her proud
The shades go down, it's in her head
Painted room... can't deny there's something wrong...
Don't call me daughter, not fit to
The picture kept will remind me
Don't call me daughter, not fit to
The picture kept will remind me
Don't call me...
She holds the hand that holds her down
She will...rise above...ooh...oh...
Don't call me daughter, not fit to
The picture kept will remind me (2x)
Don't call me daughter, not fit to be
The picture kept will remind me
Don't call me...
The shades go down (2x)
The shades go, go, go...
Unsealed,
On a porch a letter sat
Let me say "I wanna leave it again"
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand
I'm gonna say "I wanna leave it again" ....yeah
On a weekend, wanna wish it all away yeah..
and they called and I said that i want what i said
and then i call out again
and the reason oughta leave her calm I know
I said I know what I wear
not a boxer or a bag...
ah yeah...
can you seem?
out on the porch
yeah, but they don't wave
I see them, round the front way...yeah
and I know and I know
I don't wanna stay..
Make Me Cry
Ooh..I see
I don't know there's something else..
Anna called my runaway...
I said, I don't where there's a box or a bag,
ah yeah....yeah,
can u see them?
out on the porch
yeah, but they don't wave
I see them, round the front way yeah...
and I know and I know
I don't wanna stay.....at all
I don't wanna stay...(drawn out verse)
I don't wanna...(even more drawn out)
I don't wanna stay,
oh, don't wanna.....at..
all....(this word is very drawn out)
Musicians:
Jeff Ament - Bass
Stone Gossard - Guitar
Mike McCready - Guitar
Eddie Vedder - Guitar, Vocals
Matt Cameron - Drums
Boom Gaspar - Keyboards